The Darkness That Surrounds Me

WOW! I wrote this poem - drunk in a hotel room just after I lost my wife!!! I just came across it!!! WOW! I was at such a low place back then!!!


I can see you tonight

In the darkness of this hotel room;

I can hear your voice -

Whispering to my heart

And soul...


I light up a cigarette,

Take a drag;

I watch as the smoke seems to dance

To a sweet song

From my past...


I take a sip of Vodka,

And it goes down rough;

Escaping to an oasis of peace

That never seems to be enough...


The lights are out,

I'm writing to the glow of a computer screen;

And the world goes on

Outside this hotel room...


This is my life,

And this is my time

To do what I will;

Money in my pocket

And lots of memories

To fill...


I take another drag of my cigarette,

Exhaling into the darkness that surrounds me;

I wanted to quit smoking yesterday,

But didn't have the strength

Nor the motivation...


It is here I feel free,

In the darkness that surrounds me;

One solitary man

Searching for something

That I just can't see...


I've watched summers come and go,

Reflections on winter's changing snow;

Every spring I've went to the mountains

Trying to find some peace

In the hope of a new tomorrow...


I've sat around a blazing campfire

Under a starlit sky;

Whispers spoken to those I cannot see:

"Can you please

Just tell me

Why?"


Lovers without love,

Children without hope;

So many people on this long and winding road

Carrying such a heavy load...


It's here that I feel close,

No troubles to see;

Within the darkness

That surrounds

Me...


I've walked a million miles

It seems;

And I've dreamed a million dreams.

I've seen a sparkle of Heaven

In a newborn child's eyes;

And I've heard the song of Angels

From a thousand distant skies...


I learned to laugh

Through the tears of sorrow;

And through broken times

I could always see the hope

Of a brand new tomorrow.

As a child I cried out

From behind stone walls and iron bars:

"Can someone please hear me

And heal these painful scars?"


In time,

I learned to see;

The light of God

In the darkness that surrounds me...


Peace, hope and beautiful love,

After the darkness

A beautiful dawn;

And no matter the troubles,

A reason to carry on.